Cry for the moon

cry cry, i'm all alone in the darkness night.

moon hanging on the sky....

she were smile at me, that wish me will stop crying.

愛?情?

我還是很自我.
我害怕傷害別人．

我怕愛上你．
我怕辜負你．
我猶豫太多．

我真的心口不一．
我們這樣真的好嗎？
我不停問自己．
"很想哭 哭完 無助 我無法和我一個人相處 你不願搬回從前居住 就算哭 也一樣沒幫助 我被困在一個人的峽谷 多想要卻要不到你安撫 眼前是什麼路 已看不清楚"

哭真的能解一切的話．
叫我哭幹眼淚也無所謂．

但，哭能解決問題嗎？
不能，所以我不哭．．．

again

once again, i'm fall...(angel)
So star still shining...
and the angel still searching for it...

Even angel where the star are.
But the angel can't ever reach there...

Cause there got a wall that separate them...
and the will never, impossible to distrove...

night blind

Dark dark colour, apeach when the sunshine saying good-bye.

Suddenlly i'm lost, i'm lose the way to you.

Just darkness surrounding me...

Feth so hopeless, without light, with sound, just darkness and loneliness.

Wanna calling, calling you for help...

waiting for your foot step...

Only it can save my soul...

tear droup down, but i can't see it...

Cold cold wind blowing...

as the knife, pieces a pieces hurting me...

did anyone can hear my shriek...

anyone..........

i care what u say....

i'm out of confidence... is true i'm really got no confidence...

to myself or everything......

why i so unconfident...

and why i'm so care about what u say...

even she remind me... i not feth angry...

but you, you just make me sad...

or i'm just make myselt unhappy...


i know my english is kue broke...

so i'm practice... so i'm writing by english...


i don't care what u all laugh....

And are u giving me comman

or just want to laugh at me..

if u are give comman i will thank a lot...

if u just wanna laugh at me, then mind of ur busisness...

沒自信...

對,我對我沒自信...

我自卑.. 對啊...

我不像你那麼自大,自信....


我英文爛, 所以我惡補....

所以我多謝英文字...

別人出言教導,我很開心...

但,你們真的是指導嗎?

還是,出言羞辱?

又或是,諷刺?

如果,是指導. 我會很感激.

是羞辱, 就不幹你的事.

是諷刺,你沒資格...


我不需要你的假關心...

因為你不曾...


我不會和你繼續演戲下去...

你也不要繼續對我偽裝...

妖怪世界

最近, 身邊出現了很多妖怪...
我發現我很常遇見怪怪的人, 好可怕啊.....
是不是我也很怪, 不然我為什麼會常常遇見他們那些怪胎....
神啊, why is me why is me.....
現在呢??????
我很矛盾....
不知, 該開心還是傷心????
我開始對某些人很反感......
(尤其是那兩個同居密友)
我不知道是我對他們有偏見, 還是我看清他們了......
因為, 不是換他們的虛情假意......
和互相利用....
我不喜歡給人利用的...
假如, 要利用我呢... 最好不要給我發現...
不過, 我漿笨.... 因該很容易被騙吧???
看清他們後, 有一點覺得自己是不是要換眼鏡嗎???
不然, 以後一定遇人不淑...
(以上的對白全屬虛構, 如有雷同是屬巧合)

只對對我好的人好...

我是一個很半典型的天秤座...
我只對對我好的人好, 所謂的對我好...
當然不是物質上的好, 而是心靈上的感覺...
像我好友兩公婆, 天秤兩姊妹, 離了兩次婚的老公, 不是情人的情婦和才認識不久的媽姐愛咪.
她們在我心里佔據了很大的地位, 僅僅其次于家人...
真的要感謝上帝..... thank you thank you..... love you god...
讓我遇見她們..... 這一班豬朋狗友........
謝謝她們, 雖然時常對我囉唆, 玩笑, 責罵....
但, 她們讓我感覺她們是為我好的...
沒有你們, 我生活沒有意義.....
你們是不怕付出的人... 愛死你們.. 啊.. 不不不....
因該是愛活你們...

Downoing great music

last week at company i had downloaded some great music...
i just can't takew my time to listen it.

But, until today...
such a great music all is intromental(hopefully spelling correct)
i'm like the pure piano sound... so soft.... full of feeling.
today had a long chat with my mother, through her way speck, her sound acting like she dun worry about the operation...
Yes, i know she will not fear to die.... or any worse happen to her.

But she just can't stop worries about us(me and my familly members)
she worry that us can't take care of ourselve.
even we all grow up... mum i just wanna say dun worry about us..
in the same way we also worry about u.... and we will not letting u worries any more...
these not an big operation dun worry ur ill will recover...
sorry that alway letting u worry...
but i'm still not understand what dad thinking...
he want a father's day gift, i have not bought. but this month...
i got some problem that i got not enough money to bought a gilf althrough for me the spend this month...

i promise i will give once got the money... just few more day.
though this few month, happend lot of thing...
Its make me feth i have learning lot of think...
even i feth it complicate before, but now i feel not that complicated...
because i has realize something. all problem got solution...
Just dun know the solution caming when..... and took how long...

絕

我在你我自間建了一道牆.
不讓你接近, 不讓你探透.

我在我的心上上了一把鎖.
不讓你撥動, 不讓它心動.

我在我的身上穿上了刺衣.
不讓你觸碰, 保護起自己.

我將我們之間的距離,
比喻成天與地,相隔千萬里.

天一直往上飄, 逃離地.
但, 不管它逃多遠.地,
還是永遠在它心中.
(哈哈, 很感性吧. 我看我遲早會成為名作家!!!)

沉迷

我循著我愛的方向走
轉彎嗎　我迷惑
沒有誰的錯 　不等誰開口

月光指引我應該回頭
我的腳步太重
她的歌聲讓我動容 使我犯錯
眼神閃爍

你美的讓我失去了自我
我離不開你設的牢籠
是天空也笑我　
為愛　沉迷沒有用

夜美的悽涼受盡了折磨　
日出不再來世界變沙漠

承認　我沒用　
情願　住在漆黑的角落(守在你冰涼的背後)

轉個彎我不回來　
眼睛睜不開　

明天　一樣精采　勇敢愛

結果．．．

結果一直在我的預料之中．．．
沒想到真的與我預料一樣．．．

難道，之前我只是自己欺騙自己．

或許吧．是我自己自願裝傻，扮瞎．

這樣的結果很好啊．．．
起碼，我不必沉醉在自己幻想的夢境裡面．

現在的心情真像＂鐵窗＂那首歌．．．

＂我是一陣風，我不能留在原地＂
＂我是一陣風，我只能展翅高飛＂
＂你留不住我，你抓不住我＂
＂我渴望自由，但我不自由＂

放下心中大石

終於完了，斷了，明了，緣盡了．．．

放下心中的大石，是會痛．
但，只是短痛勝過長痛．

可能，大石在心中生了根．
拿掉大石，根也連心的一部分被強行剁走．

痛只是短暫，被奪取的部分也會痊癒．
好過大石長時間壓在心中．
那更為之痛苦．．．

現在，鬆了一口氣．．．
心不在沉重．．．
人也輕鬆．．．

眼淚

通常,我哭是因為我家人或一些大事情.

因為我的眼淚很珍貴.
因為我不想變懦弱.

但,人有時會很脆弱.
有時真想哭,
但淚眼線擠不出眼水.

不知道,大哭一場是什麼感覺呢?

很少人會看到我哭,
只有幾個非常幸運的朋友看過.

只有我覺得可信任的人,
我才在他們的面前哭.

現在,我要用笑來代替哭.

what is love???

People asking me wat is love....
I can't answer the question...

cause i'm dun know???
i'm really dun know???

Love is unlike my expectation...
unlike wat i'm throught.

Thank i have been love before...

actually i'm not hating u, but sometime u make me dislike u...
because of ur attitude....

i have never hating u...
cause feel thanks...

thank of u, because i have been love...
now i just trick u as a friend{normal friend)

actually i have lia to u...
it was the reson i breaking with u...

actually, "she" not the reson i break with u...
actually i wanna break with u is because...
u not trusting me...
i feel so pressure when i'm with u...

i'm wind, u can't track me, hold me...
i not belong to everyone, i belong to myself..

Yes, love is beautiful. but if it not comforable.
i better not loving...

notice or change

u say time change people, make people become strange...
it is the people who change or u just notice who the person should be...

by the way, did u change or just i'm now notice your real personal identities.