淡如止水

生活平淡無味，有如白開水一樣。但是白開水也一樣有它本身的味道，不必加任何調味料。

我喜歡簡單的事，一切不必太複雜。這樣我就不用太傷腦經。

It is the time for me to make decision, i have to decide the road i will walk on.
Did i have to care of myself or other. Should i be selfish................ or i should make myself suffer.

it really cause me crazy after met those who causing my life.....
It really make my life complicated, i had say so, i don't like complicate thing. I like everything in simply.

I know i can't just care of myself only, i have to think of other.......
I can't be selfish, i not alone in the world, i got family, i got friends,....

i'm so tired of it, even i'm think my life is perfect bow.
but what about in furture, i can't maintainning present right....

Before i can be alone, and i never feel lonely.
but now, i think previous i had get a lot. So now, i fell a bit empty.

Unusual me

Feel freak recently, I think it because of me always meet with some weird people. I can consident as the most normal person in a group of freaks.

Still, i alway didn't understand. Why all people needed love so much. And I wander did I really not needed people to love me so. These mean I'm a freak? Or I'm just abnormal?

Maybe I'm just afraid to fall in love, I may look so open minder. But I still can't accept the fact. The fact of I can love with someone. It so suffer, that I alway think of rationality. Rational make me afraith and lose my qualified to love.

Loving a person, mean a responsible. I don't think I can competence this responsibility. Me was an amphibian kind of person, inside of me got a deeper dark hole. Inside contend all of my dark side, my negetive thing.

Sometime, I'm so confruss. I like when I'm was alone, but I also will feel lonely in the same time.




Now is the time for me to make decision, I only can choose a road. The both two roads also will suffer me, and not way I will choose the third choice.

一個人寂寞

我在夜深人靜的時候，一個人聽著《夜盲症》。
我在人潮繁忙的車站，一個人聽著《陌生人》。
我在念著從前的我時，一個人聽著《無底洞》。




寂寞時，我拼命的呼吸。呼吸著我一個人的空氣。
我想。我可以將所有的寂寞氣氛吸掉。
這樣，寂寞可能會減少一些些。

冰冷的空氣吸入我的身體，穿越我的血液。
不管多冰冷，呼出來的一定很溫暖。


溫暖的心，到底還能溫暖多久？
我的心會不會有變成冰冷的一天？

Who I suppose count of.

Don't know I'm such a strong, why every ready, willing share their weakness to me. Their alway show out the weak part in font of me. I got the gift given by god, so they all easy get close to me.

I may easy to understand the feel of them, even i had can fell more then other person. But it influende my singel of emotion. They sad, my heart will get hurt. I really hate that fell. Why everyone though I was countable, why they wanna count on me. It make me saving lot of screat that only I knew. I'm so afairth that one day i will, break the promise and release all the screat.

If everyone got some promblem or some private think don't wanna let other know. But it let me knew, why I alway can knew what they wanna tell me.

I also wanna let someone I trust to know the deep fell inside of me, but I know they will not understand. And I not dare to share, I had tries few time before. In the conclusion, they will not continue listen and think I'm making laugh.

I really hope that someone can understand and believe in every word that I say. It maybe was the balancing of natural. If I got extra one , it will took away one of me.

It can't blamming other people, cause sometime I also can't believe what had i though and can't believe what I hads say.

I still remember when I was child, Every word that I spoke out. Sure everyone believe, but the people who believe were also child. Cause I had prove them to believe, only erther never listen and think I'm unusual.

But when the times passing, children growing up. They not believe anymore, and I become wordless. It took me a long time to inthrough this world. I start talking the "language" this world need.

Maybe I was born in the wrong time. I suppose some old centery person. I content some old soul.